One of my problems is that I overthink a lot of things.  All I do is think....every hour of every day.  I think about my kids and how to be better for them.  I think about my marriage and how to be the best husband I can.  I think about BT and how to be the best leader possible.  I am constantly questioning myself.  I care a lot for this forum, more than you will ever know.  I want to absorb everyone's opinions and take little bits of everything to try to please everyone.   I probably shouldn't do that.  In the end, It will drive myself crazy.  Is an overconscientious, open-minded pleaser any better than a closed minded, person of conviction?  What type of person makes a good leader?  A close-minded resolute that wields power with an iron fist, a person that really doesn't care and let things take it's course?  Or someone like me that has conviction, not swayed by 'politics' but overthinks and tries to please everyone...and needs to see his shrink twice a month?

Yes, I think I need to see my shrink again.  There has been many other non BT matters that have exploded lately that is magnifying my usual state.  I would guess that it's a full moon. I can best handle one issue at a time, but several of them at once...I could probably do better.